Twenty-four years ago my 24 year old brother Justin was suddenly swept clean from the earth. His death was unexpected and sent shockwaves through my system for years to come. His death rearranged me from the inside.Read More
Arisings from Mara's Mind
I'm becoming attuned and consistent in my physical practices: yoga, breathing and some other movement forms. I'm feeling physically stronger than the past two years since my back injury, and longer. Since half-consciously slipping into a more sedentary lifestyle. I'm regaining in strength and physical stability. I'm getting stronger from the inside.
This is a year of rebuilding my body awareness and presence, slowly and gradually. Skillfully. Without pushing or forcing. Feeling in, one moment at a time, listening and my body responding. JOY!
This is a year of fortifying and reconnecting to regular practice. Becoming more consistent, noticing how my body is beginning to crave it, how my mind is wonky without it, off-balance, unstable. This is a year of noticing how active and haphazard my mind can be at times, and noticing how it can be like that and not be a problem. How it is like that often.
This is a year of stabilizing. Laying the ground for what is yet to come and not yet known, sensing it will be something different and new.
This is a year to try new things, experiment, step into fear-based rumblings, risk failure and judgment.
This is a year to inquire, to keep leaning into what wants to happen next and next and next.
This is a year to look back and reflect on all the practice and skill-building of the past number of years and notice what is now part of me, what has become integrated and absorbed. This is a time to feel that and to honor that deep practice I committed to during this time, to notice all that I have learned and to be grateful.
This is a time to look ahead into the ginormous field of possibility, with a clear seeing. Senses open, poised on the moment that is arising.